Special..

I know that I haven't posted in a while. Sorry. I was going to last night and then I had an emotional breakdown. Which I will probably be talking about in most of this entry.

Last night, at youth, we were watching a speaker on a dvd that Steve has. We watched the same guy speak at a difference conference at the last youth session. I really like him. The point on the sermon was-

Why does God put suffering and sorrow in our life? Should we turn away from him because it is in our lives?

This really hit me. Im being dead serious. In the sermon he was really emails that he had received from people from around the world who were seeking his help. That must be a great feeling to know that you could help so many people. There was a guy that sent him an email. In the email, he was talking about how he was wondering where God was. He wanted to know.. His sister had passed away. She was killed in a car accident. He didn't believe that there was a God anymore because after all the prayers that people put out for his sister, she still died. He sent him an email back talking about how his sister was in a better place and God has a plan for everything.

There was another.. This one really touched my heart.. A girl named Lauren. She told him that she was a senior at the University of Florida and that she would be graduating in about 5 months. She sent him an emailing explaining how she wasn't a Christian but her roommate was. She wanted to get in touch with the Lord and learn more about him. Right then, he prayed for her that she could become in touch with the Lord. By this time, he had explained to us that her parents were divorced and her father was an athiest. She sent him an email back a week before her graduation at Florida. She was telling him how wonderful her life had been telling people about the Lord and all his great doings. She had definatly made a change in her life. One week later, he got another email.. Instead of it being from Lauren. It was from her mother, Anna. She wrote him to tell that Lauren had died in a car accident. Her car was the only car involved. She died from heavy internal bleeding. She then went on to explain how happy he was that he helped her become a Christian. She explained how the last 5 months of her life had been the best months of her life because she was living them teaching people and learning things more for herself about the Lord. The story then led on to tell about her father emailing him also and thanking him.

I got into my car after church. Asking a bunch of questions in my head.. Thinking about Caroline. Is that wrong? To ask questions? It just hit me really hard.. I don't want Caroline to have to suffer through things in her life. She's already a strong baby. Everyone that has been around her knows that. I kept telling myself that. Thats the first time I have broken down about the whole situation in a couple of weeks. But.. All these teenagers that don't care about there children and people getting abortions and things. It would just hurt to know what it would be like for them if they had Caroline's problems. I linked back knowing that God sends special babies to special people. It takes a special family. We are that special family. In my eyes, Caroline is going to be just as normal as any other child that I have ever seen in my life. Doctors do not know everything. They have already said that she wouldn't smile. I have proof that she can.. Look on my facebook. They said that she won't be able to make noises.. TOO LATE DOCTORS! she is making new noises. Daddy, Corrin, Nana, and I have all witnessed them.. She is going to be perfectly fine.. She is our beautiful bundle of joy and I would not trade her for the world..

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Throwing her Red headed fit..

My Handsome Date My Alex...

There are more pictures on facebook.. I am not going to upload them on onto my Blog.

The outside world...

CAROLINE MET THE OUTSIDE WORLD...
Caroline finally got to meet the real world.. Corrin and Daddy brought her to my game yesterday.. Everybody met her.. Everybody thought that she was beautiful.. Because she is, of course. She didn't put on a show with everybody. She only got a little aggravated when people started talking really loud around her.. When they woke her up, she was get a little bit upset. But, anyways. She was a big hit at the Softball and Baseball games. Anyways..

Prom-
I got ready and the Banks' house. It was Micah, Meg, Alex, and I. The prom part, It was good. The DJ wasn't as good as we all thought it was going to be.. But we all kind of made it fun! I got to meet at least 5 new people that night. 1 at prom and the rest at the party. Which was fun also. I had fun with my date, Walker. He was fun! I was exhausted Sunday..

There is not much that I can say about this weekend.. It was fun.. Everyone looked beautiful.. I will post pictures when I get them fixed like I want them. Peace.

EVEN MORE GOOD NEWS ABOUT CAROLINE!

Thank you all for your prayers. This has really helped our family and God is working His wonderful magic, yet again.
Today, Caroline went to the doctor in Jackson for her Barium test, which means her swallow test, and she passed that with flying colors! YAY! They then took her to see the Endocrinologist, Dr. Moss, to see if she was progressing any.. Guess what? He said that he was very very very surprised in how much she has progressed since the last time that she had been. Thank you all so very much for your prayers and thoughts at this time of need.
I left out some names the other day. SPECIFIC ones that I need to clarify on this post. I want to thank-->
Rayce Penick- You are wonderful. I don't think I could ask for a more understanding boyfriend and best friend. You have been here for me for a year and a half and have been there for me through every step of this, loving Caroline just as much as I do. To the point where you were going to skip classes and come back home to be with me. You mean so much to me. You know that my family loves you and wants me to spend the rest of my life with you. You are so good to me. I love you.
Macki Penick- Thank YOU! You have been there for me since you found out everything that has happened and I thank you. You have helped me and kept my faith strong. You have seen children in this situation and have led me to know that she will be great. You are a wonderful inspiration.
MY MOTHER!- I know how hard this may for you to get through. I know this is not something that every divorced mother would do. I love you. You have been there for me through thick and thin and I dont know if you can get any better than that but you have been. I love you!
CORRIN AND DADDY!!!!- EVERYTHING IS GOING TO BE OKAY! I LOVE YOU BOTH!

New Pictures of the Baby.

Ok people! I have updated pictures of caroline! Im not going to put them all on here.. just a few of them... All of them are on facebook! These are pictures from Caroline's spend the night party at Vicky and Michael's. I think the picture of her above she looks just like Daddy and I.

The Easter bunny came..

I hope everyone had a wonderful easter! I did, thats for sure! Rayce called about 9:40. I woke up and got ready for church. It was packed of course. Rayce and I left there and went to his house for lunch with his family! The easter bunny even visited me there! Haha. Thanks Mrs. Pooh. It was a good lunch. Yum! After that.. We all gathered around Mackinzie for the entertainment for the day. She had to get used to all of her easter bunny presents. Later that night Rayce and I went out to my Daddy's so that we could spend some time with Caroline on her first easter too! Sweet baby girl slept in my arms until we finally HAD to go. UGH! I think I am going to go stay out there tonight! Yay! Time with my baby.
Caroline has a barium swallow test on Tuesday. This will tell us if her reflux is actually reflux or if it is something worse. So keep us in your prayers!
Friday- Rayce and I went to the movies store and got lazy. We didn't wanna do anything.
Saturday- Rayce, Jordan, and I went to the Catholic church with Mama and Tom. Alex and Jason sat with us. They asked us to go to the movies with them in Columbus. So we get to Columbus and start eating at The Grill. That was good. We went to the movies after that. All the movies went wanted to go see didn't start until 10. UGH! So we went to Starkville and went bowling. That was fun too!
Anyways. You know what i did Sunday. Hope everyone had a great one!

Life's a game..

-->Caroline-
Caroline is doing good. She stayed at Vicky and Michael's (Corrin's brother and sister-in-law) last night. She will be stayed there again tonight. She is going to start coming to my games. She will finally be able to meet the outside world other than family, doctors, and nurses. Poor baby! Caroline will be going to LaBona Hospital on May 4, 2009 for evaluation. She will be there for 3 to 5 days. Please keep our sweet bundle of joy in your prayers! I didn't mention that she was 10 pounds 6 ounces, did I? Our fat baby is growing so fast!

It's finally Friday. Thank goodness. We don't have school today, which is even better! It really hasn't even been a school week for me. Monday was a full school day. Tuesday I had to go to the doctor so I left early. Wednesday we went on the Honor Society trip. Thursday we left at 10:30 and we were dismissed at 9:40 so we could eat. We went to Purvis for our first game and then drove about an hour and a half to Liberty for our second game.-->Yesterday's games-Yesterday's games were exhausting but fun at the same time. Everyone was in a good mood on the softball team. Which is shocking to get that big of a good to be in a good mood all day! We got to Purvis and the B team played first. They lost 9 to 8 I think was the final score. We played and we won 11-4. So, we ruled that game like every other! Haha! We got in the car and went straight to Liberty. B team played first again and I'm pretty sure that they didn't win. Amite is good. So, its OUR turn. We start playing (did I mention that they were good?) and we are tied up by the end of the game. The score is 5-5. Wow. Close game. They talk to the umpires and we get Texas Hold 'Em going like we normally do. I go back to Second because I was the third out and thats how it works. Hannah knocked me in. Thank goodness and then someone else comes up, im not for sure who it is and knocks someone else in. Then one more time. So we are now leading 8-5. They get the 3 outs and its their turn to play. They put a person on 2nd. I dont know the sequence but they got one run. Blake Rigdon threw 2 people out at third from right center. SEVENTH GRADER! There was 2 outs and another batter. The batter hits a line drive towards Corey. It looks like it going over her head but she jumped as hard as she could and caught the ball. 3rd out. We WIN! YAY! We got home at about 1:30 this morning.
--> This Weekend-
I have absolutely know idea what is going on this weekend other than Sunday is going to be a very busy afternoon for Rayce and I. We have to go to church that morning and then go eat with his family, go out to my Daddy's and spend time with my family, and then come back from my Daddy's and eat with my other side of the family at my Mama's. This is going to be a whirlwind situation. Tonight, Rayce and I don't know what we are doing. We haven't exactly made plans yet. But anyways. Have a good Easter! Be Safe!

GOOD REPORT FOR CAROLINE!

Ok. So, I know that I just posted an entry a few minutes ago, but I told everyone that I would post what Caroline's appointment led to.
--> Of course I am on the other side of the phone wondering what the outcome of the situation was. Setting myself up for the worst. I had prepared myself before I picked up the phone to dial her number. I dialed the number, and it took about 3 rings before Corrin answered. I knew before I called that her voice would scream it all, if it was good news or bad news. I wanted good news, but like I said, we have to set ourselves up for the worst. In the past, when we have set ourselves up for good things to happen, it always turns out to be bad.
She answered the phone with a funny "Hello?" The voice that she does when she is in a good mood. Pheww. One thing down. One more to go. "Hey! What did the doctor say?" She answered me with, "Well.." This did not my anticipation any better because she paused after she said it.. "One thing the doctor said that her sucking pads look great!" YAY!!!!!
"Second, he said that because she has been so alert, he thinks her seizures are going away!" YAY!!!!!! THANK GOD!
"Third, they do not know about her brain. They have to go back Tuesday for another checkup and a scan."
Everyone who is reading this, that has been praying for Caroline and our family.
I just want to let you all know that you mean so much to us. I am so happy to know that there are loving people in this world that would take time out of there day to say a prayer for my little sister and my family. You have absolutely know idea how thankful we are for your prayers and you. We thank the churches for the prayers that they have provided for us and putting Caroline on the prayer list at all of these churches that we have been hearing about. To my friends that have been there for me through this all. Especially my softball team. They all witnessed me finding out what happened and what the outcome of the stroke was going to be. They were there for me in my time of need. They stopped what they were doing to comfort me. It didn't matter if they were taking defense, hitting, or just shagging up balls. They came to me to be there for me. Every one of my teammates. Not only have my teammates been there for me, but all of my friends from school and all of my friends that don't go to my school. You have no idea what this means to me and to my family. Thank you for all of Caroline's gifts. I can promise you that she has everything. God has proven his strength. He has a plan for everything and I am so glad that everyone knows it and have prayed to Him to keep our family going and to be with Caroline. Anything is possible with God. He knows whats going to happen next. Not the doctors, not us. HE DOES.
-- Julianna- I want to give a personal thank you to you. You are taking your time to make Caroline something that you don't have to take time out to do. I know that Caroline and my family as well, will treasure what you are painting for her. She will always remember that you did it for her because you loved and cared about her. Thank you so much for everything that you have done and everything that you are doing. I really appreciate it.
If you have any questions about anything, feel free to ask! Stay strong in faith. Keep praying! We have a lot more to go!

Caroline's Neurologist Appointment.

-->Today was a long day.. Unfortunatly.
I woke up at 5:20 and had to be at the school at 6:30. We went to Jackson to Mississippi College for the National Honor Society convention. If you don't know what it is, its just a long presentation thanking a lot of people and the students for being smart and things of that sort and interacting with other students in Mississippi. I rode with Mrs. Janice Martin, Megan Dinsmore, Laura Cotton, Julianna Persons, Meg Banks, and Hunter Campbell. It was open in there because Hannah and Hollie were already in Jackson. Anyways.. That was a long day. We sat there until 1:45. We left and we were going to the mall, but I'm not going to bring up that incident and get stirred up about it again. We got home, and I went to Southern Seed to talk to Mama to stall a little time. I changed out there and then came back to the field and we hit three rounds. We left after that and now I'm here.
-->Tomorrow, We are leaving at 10:30 to go to Purvis (3 hours away) and then go straight from Purvis to Liberty. We wont be getting to Liberty until about 9 tomorrow night and then play another game there. So tomorrow is going to be an even longer day. But we don't have to go to school until 9 tomorrow so that is good. We don't have school Friday so that is even better!
--> UPDATE ON CAROLINE-
Caroline had an appointment with the Neurologist today about her brain. I have not heard from Corrin yet. I will be going and staying out there tonight to help them out with the baby so I will try and update everybody again tonight about what is going on and what the doctor said. We are all hoping and praying that we have a good report. We need all the prayers that we can get. We have all the hope in the world that everything is going to turn out for the good. Please pray.

I hate doctors.

Well.. Today started off as a good day. Then it kind of went down hill. We had our Chemistry test and it wasn't that bad. But now that I say that it wasn't that bad I probably did horrible on it! Anyways. I get a message from my Mom that says "4:00 apppointment" which means something is bad and the doctor wanted to see me about my jaw. We get down there thinking that we are going to be talking about surgery, which we did, and he wants to do one more thing before surgery to see if it would work. So, he decided he wanted to inject me with a numbing medicine to numb my jaw. This would wear off in 2 to 3 hours. So, of course, I start flipping out and not wanting to do it but wanted to at the same time. So he comes in and sticks a 3 inch needle into my jaw from the outside. Did I mention that I am awake through all of this, without any medication? Yes, I was. The pain was horrible and I wanted to smack Dr. Griffin. I should have. THEN! ....... Mom and I had to watch what they were going to do to me during surgery. I think Dr. Griffin has pretty much already decided that we are already going to have surgery. He is just giving it another two weeks and see what it does. The movie sucked. I was still kind of in shock from getting a needle stuck into my face. But anyways.
Caroline had pictures today... Can't wait to see them! Have a great night.

Well. I am a bit tired. Today has been a HUGE day! I stayed up last night finishing Eclipse and started Breaking Dawn, FINALLY! I have been waiting to start this book longer than you would imagine. I should've read the third one fasted but I stopped for like a week so I could crochet for that week! But, anways. I woke up at 7:05 this morning and started getting ready. Meg, Micah, and I all went to Tuscaloosa prom dress shopping. YAY! Its exciting. I actually had a lot of luck, again. The last night I went there, I went for beauty and beau and had a lot of finals that I had to choose from. I finally got down to two today and it was a hard decision. It was between a Black velvet, strapless dress with a white sash underneath the bust and a Solid white one that was strapless and beaded all the way down and had feathers on it! Guess which one I chose? If you guessed white, you were correct. Everybody knows that I love white dresses! =) So, Micah got a black and gold one, and its gorgeous. Meg got a black and red dress. Its gorgeous. Both of theirs is. Anyways. After we left there, we went and ate at Olive Garden. It was GOOD. We left there, and we were on our way home. I had to be home by like 3:15 to 3:30 because Marion asked me to do her hair and makeup for their 8th grade banquet tonight. We finally got out to the highway and there is like 4 miles of traffic backed up. NOT GOOD. So we sit in traffic for a least thirty minutes. Again, did I already say that this was not good? So we finally get back at like 3:35.. WOAH! Close timing. So I finished her and sent her off to the banquet. My grandparents were here when we got home and I have been chatting with them for a little while. We have been invited to Fourwheeler ride, eat steaks, or either we really just want be quiet tonight and just watch movies all night. I think we are going to eat with Daddy, Peanut, and Corrin and then coming back and being lazy. But, anyways... Have a great Saturday night!

Unbelievable.

Well. Today was better. Haven't updated in a Couple of days. Sorry :/

Last night, Meg, Micah, Mrs. Melissa, and I went to Tupelo and saw Cats on Broadway. It was very good. Yes, I know what your thinking. We did go to Tupelo in the horrible weather and I thought we were all going to die. Haha.
Yesterday, we got out of school at 12 because the weather was supposed to get bad at around one. Luckily, we got out and it didn't bad until that night! So thank you bad weather for coming at night! When we left at 12, Kellie, Meg, Hunter, Trevor, and I all went and ate the Bakery. Well.. I watched and then ate what Trevor didn't want. We got back and then I started getting ready for that night. I missed my tanning bed appointment because of the bad weather, unfortunatly. But, I am going to go after my game tonight.

Today, I woke up at 7:25 and went to school with no makeup and wet hair.. I was tired. 1st period was ok. Second period--->UGH! I had to take a huge quiz that I stayed up til 1 in the morning studying for that I didn't even comprehend. Oops. So I wonder if I did ok on that! 3rd period we had PE. I have never laughed so hard in my life!!! Alonzo, Hannah, Jamie, Rachel were practically throwing each other on the ground fighting over this game they were playing. I couldn't even read I was laughing so hard. Coach Beall's wasn't there today so we watched a movie and didn't do anything in there. 5th, of course we did work. We got in a food fight with the boys table at lunch today, that was fun. And then we have a chemistry test on Monday--> drag. Anyways. Today has overall been a good day. We have a game against Amite!

Have a great day!

Awful Day.

Last night was awful. Rayce and I got into a fight. But that is ok because shockingly, it was our first fight in a week and a half and for those of you that know us, that's a big accomplishment. Today was awful. Even though we didn't do anything in any of our classes it still was horrible. Start off the day, I had to drive Mom around everywhere which doesn't bother me that much because she did it for me for 15 years. Then I got to school. That's where it fell down hill. First period I didn't do anything. Second period I sat in the cafeteria with Mr. Dale and Mr. Ray. That was an experience. I got to know Mr. Dale better than I did Sunday and he ended up speaking at our school during Second period. Third period I went straight to the bookfair because I signed up for it so I could get out of class. Mrs. Clemie told us that we could be done by 12 but that was not going to cut it for Julianna, Megan, Meg, and I. We didn't want to go to Geometry. Even though more than half of our class was gone to Hattisburg for the chorus competition, he was still gonna make us do something. Go figure? So we stayed in there. It was a long 3 hours. We mostly looked at the cook books. Julianna was the only one that ended up "copyrighting" as Mrs. Clemie would say. But after that, we went to lunch and then we went to chemistry. Today wasn't really Chemistry though. It was PE day. Hunter threw a ball as hard as he could and hit my foot. Now there's a bruise. Thanks, Hunter! Left there, Came home, changed. SOFTBALL! ugh. even said. Kellie and I got into it. She made me mad about something stupid, its common. We make each other mad all the time and we cope. Make the day worse, of course Rayce can't make up his mind on what he wants to do and springs some more news or drama on me. UGH! I hate that! So. Im about to just.. I dont even know. I hope everybody else had a better day than I did.